One Love - Bob Marley

Yes we have left paradise. Our Kauai trip was superb. It was a perfect getaway. Of course we want to move there now. We have calculated that it will take 3 years before we can move to Kauai. The fantastic part of this dream is that we truly feel like this could be a future reality. What do we have to lose besides money. Canyon was outside more than inside during our trip. He loved the sand and the ocean. He could run barefoot on the grass in only a diaper or naked with complete comfort. It was so refreshing to have a temperature that was always comfortable. We listened to Bob Marley over and over. Canyon loved to watch the CD spin. He would spend time making sure every fan was on in the house. He loved to watch them spin. The beach was his own personal spa. He would lay in the sand, roll around in it, eat it. He dug and sifted and felt it through his toes. He is an amazing boy. Our aloha spirit is high right now.
We are back home and less than 12 hours after landing I started round number 2 of treatment. Back to radiation. I am happy to report 2 days down with little to no side effects, only 28 treatments and 6 chemos and I will be done. Oh but who's counting. Canyon came down with some illness on our trip home or the days leading up to our departure from kauai. He was shivering with a temp of 102. So while I was getting my first treatment he was at a walk in clinic with papa. It was weird to be back on the radiation table again. Same people working just one new person. They are always upbeat and positive, which is nice when you are going somewhere to get fried. This time during treatment I am visualizing these radiation beams targeting my cancer cells like an astroids game. So when I hear the radiation machine buzz and rotate and buzz again I just imagine the cells being blasted and reaching the next level of the healing game. I did feel a bit of nausea the last two days probably nerves. My treatment times range from 9am - 12pm and last 15 minutes. There is no choice but to live in the moment during treatment because I don't know how my body and mind will feel moment to moment with the array of drugs that are circulating through my body. This is a journey of unknowns that is a guarantee.