Tuesday, October 16, 2012


Dear Friends,

Things have turned for the worst. We had a wonderful trip to Disneyland in May. Right now I am in the Hospice House in Bellingham. Thank you so much for all of your support through this.  It has meant so much to me. 

All my love,


Gretchen said...

Oh Alexis, we love you. You sit here, at the top of my heart, and the top of my thoughts...

Kate said...

You've given us all much more than you'll ever know. Thank you for sharing your heart, your struggle, your honesty and your light with us. I'll carry it with me always.

Auntie Paula said...
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Anonymous said...

It is with much sadness that I read this post. You are such an amazingly strong and loving mother, caring friend, and wonderful nurse. I hope that you are in gentle hands with the Hospice nurses. You are so beloved!
Much love.

drcarala said...

I love you sweet baby girl. i am planning to take the train to B'ham on Friday and to be there around 2:30. I love you and want you to know that you changed my life, rock my world, and continue to inspire silly crazy art and laughter nuttiness. you beautiful thing!

love, cara

Holly Braaten said...

Your strength and courage has been an inspiration to many. You have been in my prayers for years and your family will continue to be! Praying for peace and no pain amazing woman!

Kpickard said...

Please know that you have shaped and softened lives even beyond your reach... Your life has touched others in so many mysterious ways..thank you.

De, Christa, and Murphy said...

Dear Alexis, thank you for sharing yourself with me through your blog.

I hold you in the light every single day, and wish for a gentleness and ease for you in the coming time.

From you I have been inspired to squeeze more goodness out of each day.

Sending much love...

Anonymous said...


You are the strongest woman I have ever known. Know that you have inspired all of us. You have inspired me to look at my life with new appreciation and I look at you with awe. You truly are a great mother and the bravest woman I have ever met.

With love,

ezra and liza said...

Alexis, your strength, spirit and bravery are an inspiration to us all. You have touched so many lives. Your journey is a constant reminder to me of how and why I should cherish my own children and my own life. Thank you for you gift to the world. I wish you and your family peace and love.

alisa (a friend of Laura's)

Unknown said...

Dearest Alexis:

You are one of the strongest chics I have ever met!!! I precepted you through your L&D training and rocked it like no other orientee.. you had a heart of gold for every woman that stepped through the door.. you fought for their rights and stood by them no matter what.. and then you moved to Bellingham and all I could think of was .. great we train another "goodie" only to lose her.. what I failed to realize is that Bellingham scored... I will never forget your laugh since the day you hit L&D... and now here YOU ARE the patient, you have fought through thick and thin and I love that you you continue to fight... Let me tell you that hospice in Bellingham probably doesn't know what hit them.. THEY NOW HAVE A STRONG WOMAN !!! Prayers and love headed your way.. love you lots..if you ever wanna text or call 206-612-9998 - feel free.. love u.. Jelaine

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Alexis, when two beings share the depths of their lights together, that is love and love is forever. I am sending you soft, warm and glowing beams of light right now and please feel the warmth it brings you. Let me know if you want anything at all. I would love to share some mfr experiences with you. Please call me if you want 647-1242.

Anonymous said...

Sending much love to you and your family!!! Sue

Abigail Morgan Prout said...

Dear Sixela,

I am sending you love and light, knowing that (beyond our understanding) your journey is a sacred one. Thank you for giving me access to your love, struggle, and life through this time. I will always remember you as the beautiful, funny and loving person you are. I hold most dear memories of our time together in school at Bellingham, doing improv together- sharing so much laughter.

Sending you love, Ab

Amy said...

I am sad that you are suffering, but want you to know that you have moved so many people. You have amazing gifts, Alexis, and I know you will continue to give in so many ways.

Brent and Dayla said...


Tears replace the words that cannot express the emotion. Your life has been a life of quiet strength, strong smiles, & deep care. You remind us that today is all we have. I hope you are surrounded by the loves of your life & comfort in their presence. For this life is just the beginning... I send my love. Love,

Catherine Hounfodji said...

Alexis, your strength is truly inspiring, and you and your family continue to be in my prayers. I feel so privileged that our paths crossed years ago and that you touched my life.

All my love,
Catherine North

Anonymous said...

Dearest Alexis, you are a being of light and love and we are all honored to have you be a part of our lives and will carry that with us each day. You have shown us strength, honesty and courage during difficult times. Know, without a doubt, you make a difference and you always will.


Anonymous said...

All my love and then some. Every time I make a chicken pot pie you are there.
Thank you for your heart and light.

Anonymous said...

Alexis, Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. I am honored that our paths crossed - I am a better person for it. My thoughts are with you and your family and I wish you peace and much love.

The Hutchings said...

I sit here struggling to find the words I want to share with you. I feel a rush of emotion as one mama to another. One thing I do know from experience is that the veil between the two worlds is thin. You experienced that over and over helping women birth babies. My Mom crossed over 5 years ago and my relationship with her continues. Hard to explain, but very true. She wakes me with the smell of burning toast and over the years strangers with some sort of gift have stopped me to give me messages from her. Not even losing her earthly body has kept her from me. A mother's love transcends all. I am sending you love and light. Adria

Anonymous said...

Sweet, sweet Alexis,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. What a blessing to have crossed your path in this lifetime in the dusty world of Benin and experienced life with you in the village of Agbanu. Thank you for your smile, your light which shines so bright. Your dance moves go down in history.
You are a blessing.
I love you,

CandiceJane said...

Alexis, you will forever have a place in my heart. I wish I could take all of your discomfort away (but isn't that what all nurses want?). I truly admire your strength and tenacity. I'm sure everyone in your life will have nothing but amazing memories of how you touched their lives, just as you have touched mine.

Anonymous said...

Your strength has reached far beyond those you've met. Thank you for your candor and sharing your story with the world - reminding me to be thankful for every moment. Thinking of you and your loved ones and sending positive energy from this universe...Kris (an old college roomie of Laura's)

hmd said...

I will never forget our journey up to the top of that rock "mountain" at your post to watch the most beautiful meteor shower. I always think of you when I see a shooting star...and will continue to do so. You are quite a star and I am blessed to have shared that (and many other) moments with you.
God bless you and your family.
Holly Dreier

Lani Alvarez said...

Alexis -
Your Seattle gang in L&D is sending you tons of love and strength. Fill your days with happy moments and gather even more courage from those who surround you.
Love, Lani

Wendy said...

Oh honey, hard to know what to say. You are so strong, such an amazing momma and wife and daughter. I am sending you as much light as I can right now, feel the warmth of it. I wish you peace, you are so loved.

Karen Sheldon said...

Beautiful Alexis, You are a Mama, wife, sister, friend, teacher.
We are at your side, loving you, learning from you that whatever arises will cease. Go calmly, in peace.

LMB Seattle said...

Alexis, I've never met you, but feel like I know you. I've worked with your mom for two years, and I am continually inspired by your strength and grace (and your mom's too). Your legacy will stay with us, always reminding us to live life fully and love others. Thank you.
Lora Marini Baker

Anonymous said...

Alexis, I met you once at our mutual friend Jenny's backyard party. I remember you as pretty & dark=haired, a quietly confident woman. I complimented your Naot shoes! Over the years Jenny has related your triumphs & set-backs, & I have admired your courage, strength & sense of humor from afar. I see from the comments above that you are beloved by many, & I am adding my love to that ocean of love that holds you & buoys you.

Mary Darling

jessica lynn bonin said...

dear alexis, my heart is with you right now and has been throughout you tenuous journey. i feel blessed to have met you and to have painted your portrait, i think of you as a vibrant colorful woman whose energy for life and love will never cease.

jessica bonin

Jessica said...

I'm so happy that we met in Benin and spent countless hours hanging out. I think of you every time I hear a Madonna song and can still picture you singing La Isla Bonita at Chez Alex. I'm so happy to have seen you a few months ago. I'm thinking of you all the time. Sending you lots of love and light - Jessica S.

Michelle Malone said...


May you know lovingkindness
May you know peace and contentment
May you be released from pain and suffering
May you truly know deep in your heart how much you are loved
May the light and strength of all who have had the honor to know you carry you home.
May you know that you and your family are in our hearts and will be cared for, now and forever.

You are such a special woman, mother, friend. Thank you for all you have given to others and received with grace from others. Your life and legacy is an inspiration and a gift.

Love, love, love.


Anonymous said...

We love you so much Lex. You are strong and beautiful, heck you're a Pingree! Gretch and I are thinking and praying for you daily. We love you.


Janice Deptuch said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
You are a special person and a great mom.
I am so glad I got the opportunity to work with you and get to know you and your family.

Lots of love,
Janice Deptuch

Anonymous said...

You fought a gallant battle. Your family can only learn from your strengths.

Patty from the Business Office

Anonymous said...


My thoughts are with you and your family during this time. It seems like just yesterday that we were hanging out in the bureau or going to kareoke...To say that your strength, grace and courage throughout this has been inspirational would be an understatement. Reading all the posts here I am sure you know that you are loved by many, many people.

Love - Jennifer Pallotta

Anonymous said...

Your strength is inspiring. Canyon will have one amazing angel looking over him! Sending love. Give Noelle a hug for me....
-Lora Southard

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance
I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Anonymous said...

Much love and light to you Alexis. Thank you for sharing your love, kindness, and inspiration. You have brought light to so many, including me. May you know peace, and may you continue to shine your light upon us from the heavens. Love, Barb

Lisa Helfer Elghazi said...

Dear Alexis,

From my heart to yours...

I have so many funny and beautiful memories of all of us in Bellingham together. You are a wonderful, inspiring woman. You have been such a warrior through all of this; your truth and honesty are a shining light in the world.


Michael said...

A prayer on wings to travel with you on the next leg of your journey--may it be full of wonder and light and the knowledge of the many lives you touch and the many people who love you.

With much love,

Anonymous said...

Dear Alexis,you may not even remember me from Antepartum at Swedish{ night charge RN],but I sure remember your positive attitude and sweet smiling face.You have been in my prayers often,and sometimes prayers are not always answered in the way that we had hoped,but please believe that your life has been an absolute miracle,and one of your most amazing was giving life to your beautiful treasured son.He is your ultimate and lasting gift and legacy to your family and the world and he will be well cared for by the people that love you.I will share a song with you that I sing at my church,and I want you to know that when you are ready,there will be the greatest love you have ever known waiting for you in heaven ready to embrace you and welcome you home.Go in peace.God be with you.Go in peace.Be at rest.With the saints and the angels.Now you are free.Go in peace.Love and prayers,Lynda Mitchell

rocketgirl said...

I came across the in my meditation this morning: Isaiah 26:19

Those who die in the Lord will live:their bodies will rise again! Those who sleep in the earth will rise up and sing for joy! For your life giving light will fall like the dew on your people.

The Amplified version notes this: Your dew [O Lord] is a dew of [sparkling] light [heavenly, supernatural dew].
I like to think of you, Alexis as surrounded by God's sparkling heavenly light. God is right there with you, right now, holding you close and we are holding you close in our hearts.

Anonymous said...

I think back, on what seems like a million years ago now, to our trip to California for the music festival. I had such a blast with you in whatever we did. You always made me smile and laugh, even when you would tell me how stupid I looked if I sat with my mouth open! You were never trying to be rude, just helpful :)
You and your family are always in my thoughts. My heart aches. You are an amazing beautiful woman and I am better for knowing you. Forever your friend and with much love, Amy....(Mary)

LilyWarrior said...

"What is life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath of a buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset." -Crowfoot--Blackfoot Warrior and orator

Yours was the most beautiful of all the flashes running toward sunset--rising again at morning's first light. You, Alexis, are eternal love and sparkling joy.

I love you.


Life of Razz said...

Dearest Alexis,
You and Brian and Canyon are continually in my thoughts and prayers. Praying for peaceful, pain free time for you to be present with your family. What a beautiful family you have!

c said...

Alexis, I am sorry that you have had such a hard time -- for such a long time. I so much admire your courage and appreciation for each day. You have been brave in ways that most of us don't even know about. More than that, I admire your willingness to talk and to tell the truth, your truth. I am thinking of you and praying for you. A hug for you, your husband and son. Connie

Anonymous said...

Dear Alexis,

I am thinking of you every day and am keeping you in my prayers. My namesake, Kateri Tekakwitha, is being canonized a saint this week. I will pray to her for you and your family. I know we don't know each other well, but your strength and courage has inspired me to strive to be a better mother and person.


Anonymous said...

We are strangers but I have followed your story and have prayed for you and your family. YOU have made a difference. In the best way. Peace and Love.

Hayley Horne said...


You have been an inspiration as a mother, a friend, a wife, a person. I see your smile, joy and personality in Canyon everyday. Know that you and yours are loved and will always continued to be loved and cared for. We have been so lucky to have you with us.

Peace, love, hugs, laughs
Hayley (St.F)

Anonymous said...

Hi Alexis,
You have been in my thoughts often these past few weeks. I felt so blessed the day you and I ran into each other at Swedish. You said to me Hi its me Alexis! I knew who you were the minute I saw your beautiful smile. I think of the great days I had the pleasure of working with you. You are an amazing nurse. So much love and laughter you gave to us and all the patients. You and your family are in my heart and in my prayers. I am glad we had a chance to sit and talk that day so many months ago. I treasure that time we spent together. You definitely were one of the great ones that slipped away from us. Be at peace sweet lady. I send you my love.

Anna Folsom said...

Dear, dear Alexis,

Do not be afraid. You have so many people who love and care about you that are here for you as you move from this world into the next. Please know that we will meet again, open arms, as friends, from now until forever.


Suzi Zobrist said...

Dearest Alexis,

I have been thinking abot you so much over these last few years and especially the last few days!! I looked you up on facebook to see what was going on in your world and saw so many of your friends posting old photos of you from all the days of your life!! Wow!!Rainbows of Colors from all walks of your life!!

So I dug a little deeper and found your recent post on your blog. I was shocked! Speechless . . . I had a journey with ovarian cancer. It has been almost 11 years now, and each day I Bless this life and another day to be Alive in it. We never know how long we have and I know you have touched so many people with you journey. You have been strength, humour, honesty and faith for so many!! I have been watching, reading and celebrating with you!!

It has been 20 years since we lived together in Bellingham. You, Mechelle and I with our crazy cats!I feel like your journey has been my journey too. I felt afraid and sad last night when I read your latest blog post. A good reminder for us all to not waste a single day!! I know you have been showing up every day Alexis!!! And what a beautiful life it has been so far.

I am sorry that you have had some challenges, that your soul's journey here has been difficult and brilliant, at the same time. And since my journey, I believe that each of us will meet a difficult life challenge, or many! And this is what shapes us, where we grow. And sometimes, it is through our own personal struggles that the others in our life grow. Like our friends and family. I think about Brandon and your Son. And how their lives have been shaped by you!!! How deeply you have touched them FOREVER!!! Nothing will take that away from them!! And they will NEVER forget!!

Dearest Alexis ~ I do not know if it is your time to transition, but you have Blessed us with your Life and Spirit. Please know you are Loved, still loved by a long-ago roommate. I can clearly see your smile and hear your laughter, even after all these years!!! Thank you for the gift of you! I am sorry you might have to leave your Son (that would be the hardest piece for me! My Daughter). I just needed to say that ~ I am sorry. And I am grateful you got to experience that kind of love in this lifetime!! May it carry you.
Walk in Beauty ~
Suzi Zobrist

Anonymous said...


Years have passed since Peace Corps but your engaging eyes , infectious smile and loving heart are unforgettable. I imagine your son has the same traits and he will remind your family and friends of you always. May you have peace forever.

Tracy Wetternach (Trashy)

Anonymous said...

Oh, my, Alexis! These pages are just dripping with love and admiration for you. Of course, I am not surprised. You are easy to love from the moment you walk into a room and, I know, the warmth and fondness people have for you only grows over time. You have given so much to so many. Through direct contact (as a friend or nurse) and, through your story you have, do and will provide joy and inspiration. I am truly honored and blessed to know you. Thank you for sharing your life so generously~ Judy

Anonymous said...

Dear Alexis,
Thank you for your light and bounce. Benin was a gift for so many of us.
- Martin Pascual

Candid Studios said...

I remember when you, Jill, Julie J. and one other person happened to stop into the Buckaroo in Seattle...probably 2004. I was living there at the time, and it was so great to see you and your big grin and bright eyes! You have always been such a rockstar...and don't give this ruddy disease one inch! You are an awesome person because the light inside you radiates outwards...and for those of us lucky to even have met you...well...we're truly blessed. My thoughts are with you...and your family.
Jenny Larsen

Anonymous said...

Dear Alexis,
Your loving and open spirit have lifted so very many people. When I think of you, I see your bright smile and I feel your honest kindness. Now, may you feel our love beaming on you like warm sunlight on your skin. May it ease you, comfort you, gently support you. Thank you, our dear one, for all that you have given from your strong and lovely heart.
All love and peace,
Gail B.

Anonymous said...

Hi Alexis, I have been reading your blog from time to time--you are an amazing person! I am so lucky to have crossed paths with you, even if so briefly and so long ago....you were one of those "hot new stagaires" and we had some fun times in Cotonou...and a Y2K new year's eve party on some island in Washington I think. Anyway I just wanted you to know you are in my thoughts and heart forever, Jennifer Paillet (RPCV Benin 95-97)

Anonymous said...

Alexis, You are brave and strong and loved. I wish the best to you and your family. Laura Showers

Bonnie said...

Alexis, Robert and I have been thinking of you often during your journey for better health. Our hearts have broken for you and yours as we read about your struggles to go on. You are a ray of sunshine in this world, we will think of you often and hope we can be as strong as you have been. Love Bonnie and Robert

mamabirdcardinal said...

Rest in Peace now my sweet sister in law. You will be in my thoughts daily for the rest of my life on this Earth.
I love you. Laura

rocketgirl said...

Alexis, you crossed over the rainbow yesterday. Your smile will never be forgotten, it is carried in the beautiful smile of your son. You will be missed, our lives forever enhanced by your mama warrior spirit. My heart and prayers go out for peace for all of your family now. Love always

Butlerdzjp said...

Alexis, You are the strongest woman I have ever known. Know that you have inspired all of us. You have inspired me to look at my life with new appreciation and I look at you with awe. You truly are a great mother and the bravest woman I have ever met. With love, Jessi

Anonymous said...

May you and your family have peace and love. You are in my PRAYERS~GOD Bess

Anonymous said...

Alexis I've been following your blog for a while. You are brave and you are beautiful. I am a young widow. My husband died in a tragic plane crash when I was pregnant with our son, who is now four. My thoughts are with canyon. I know yours have to be, too. How will he fare through life without his mommy? It's a heartbreaking, unfair reality, but your son WILL grow up with you in his heart His dad, your family, and your friends WILL honor your memory and give him all the love they can because he deserves it. It will never replace what you could and should have given him, but he will smile, laugh, love, and always know his mom and how much she loved him. I can only say these things because I am on the surviving side... I am a solo parent who never thought she could handle it. When we have to, we do. I send you love and peace and the knowledge that your sweet little boy will be okay. Xoxo

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Alexis, although you have been gone a while now still think of you often. Whenever there is a rainbow in the sky or in an oil slick or water on the ground I think of the rainbow connection.

Glad you are at peace and the struggle to survive is over, sorry for your family who lost a lovely, vibrant young lady and wonderful mother to Canyon.

God Bless!

rocketgirl said...

This is where I feel closest to you Alexis, so I come here today, the first annniversary of the day you crossed over the Rainbow. We feel your spirit all around us and we smile. Your son Canyon is a beautiful boy, his smile shines like the noonday sun. We all love catching glimpses of Rainbows and saying " There she is! There's Alexis". We miss you.