Falling for you.. Someone sang this somewhere

> The rainbow connection has been thriving. Along with the help of my friends, a Facebook page was created titled, "Alexis' Rainbow Connection". It is a place where the intention is to add more rainbow colored foods to our diets or cut out some unwanted item, for me it's candy/excess sugar. I have enjoyed having this outlet, there are 60 people who have joined, all are welcome! I love seeing friends from high school connecting with friends from Bellingham over amazing salad dressing or a picture of a rainbow of fruit. It has been a place of confession, nonjudgment, ideas, recipes and good humor. I have been inspired.
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> To add to my inspiration my husband almost completed our kitchen remodel as a surprise when I came home. When we drove up there were 20 or so friends and neighbors waiting to welcome me home. It was a wonderful way to come home to Bellingham after 8 weeks of treatment. My friends had spent the majority of their visit cleaning and organizing my house and garden. So our sidewalk is covered with wonderful chalk art by some of the kids. My beds were filled with flowers and some starter vege and fruits. The inside was clean and filled with bouquet after bouquet of flowers. It was truly a surprise. There was a new stove/gas range, painted stairs and a new glass cabinet. The glass cabinet was my birthday present. It is to display all of my fabric! My fabric was nicely folded and ready to be turned into the best quilt ever. I was so grateful again and again.
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> Having this new kitchen I have been keeping it clean and wanting to spend more time focusing on the rainbow connection. So lucky for me my friends sister-in-law who is somewhat new to Bellingham, has a little guy Canyon's age, she is not working, she is a chef who has taught in culinary school. So we connected and she is teaching me how to shop, cook in a simple and healthy way. We also get to hangout have fun and so do our little guys. It's a win win. I m inspired looking at recipes and actually using a few.
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> Another highlight is that I have slowly taught myself to drive with my left foot. So for short distances I can drive, yeah. This is such a big deal, because I spent many days in my house without the ability to walk or drive anywhere. It is very isolating to be stranded at home. So I have gained a small amount of freedom/ control back into my life.
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> Of course with every silver lining there is a dark cloud or a rain shower. The side effects of my treatments have created some challenges. My right foot continues to be numb and hard to walk with. And this evening I had my first fall. Luckily at home, in my bedroom, I was walking and started to wobble and then I was down for the count. The fear is that I will twist and/ or injure the foot that I can't feel. No damage tonight! I made it.
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> Also I continue to have lymphadema or edema everyday in my left leg and foot. It is uncomfortable and my right leg has atrophied so much that my left leg looks gigantic.
> I am trying to decrease my steroids and drink a lot of lemon water every day. I have noticed some results from increasing my hydration. My issue might have to do with my kidney function. I spoke with a nurse about the issue and she is talking with the doctor. The side effects carry on. My other issue which is upsetting me is my risk of falling and my actual falls. I have fallen twice now, today and yesterday. My right foot is so numb I just can't always keep steady. Unfortunately today I actually did some damage . My ankle is swollen and feels a bit stiff. I can't feel much, I know I twisted it but who's to know how much it is hurt. My plan is to find a doctor to examine it. In the mean time I am icing it.
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> Although I am dealing with a new way of life, I continue to try to do what I can. Every time I go up or down our steps. I try to take my time, be present and patient with the process because I do not want to fall down the stairs. I walk extra slow.
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> I attended a workshop about cancer and healing yesterday and was reminded again about "energy currency". They actually gave us monopoly money and would take our energy currency away depending upon how we used our energy. The key is to increase my energy currency and to try to figure out my truth. So tapping into my intuition, my beliefs and being mindful of my energy stores should help with healing, not a cure but move toward healing. I am ready to heal to face my reality. Or at least try. Starting now I need to get some restorative sleep. Energy increase, kaching!